She was holding something back from him. Something important and integral to her mind. But he wouldn’t press her, not if it was something as big as it seemed. Instead, he rubbed her shoulder some more and just let her think. Everyone had secrets. Everyone needed their own little things to keep them sane and grounded. If this–whatever this was–was hers, he wouldn’t force it from her.
He obliged her request, mentally noting just how full her voice was with need. He couldn’t deny her when she sounded like that, so close to some sort of emotion that she was trying to press back. He placed a hand under her chin and pulled her face up so he could plant another soft kiss on her lips before mumbling. “Whatever you want.”
He didn’t hold back this time, pulling her in close and letting his tongue seek out hers. He knew it was sloppy and driven by the strange combination of lust and need, but it was intimate. Two messed up junkies kissing on a couch. What could be more perfect?
God, how was he being so gentle with her? She was aching inside of hr chest and she ached even more so when their lips collided again. Zoey pressed into him, wanting the attention and needing the distraction, her hands running to his chest to meet his neck before dropping back down to his collarbone. The determination in the corner of her mind kept her going and simply refused to let her pull away as her eyes squeezed shut.
You’re not meant for this, she thought, opening herself up to him and feeling her tongue move against his. You’re not meant for feelings. You’re not meant to let people in. This is why you isolate herself. To protect. Exactly how long had those thoughts lived with her for? Months. More than a year. Ever since Gustavo. Fuck, Gustavo. She had to think about him while she was in the middle of a make out session with Joseph? They were two completely different people aside from their choice of work. She had a thing, you see, and she was brilliant at finding the ones who were just as fucked up as her. Where exactly was the exception here?
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